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01 July 2008 @ 10:45 am
five years.  
This isn't where I saw myself five years ago. I guess I don't know where I saw myself. Maybe with friends. I don't see any of my friends. The only time I see anyone that is a friend is when I go to school. I stayed on an extra year at school, so all my high school/secondary school friends left and went to uni and stuff. I kind of kept in touch with them. But they all made other friends. All those I considered as best friends have other friends they consider best friends. All I have is my boyfriend. Don't get me wrong he is the love of my life. But a girl needs her friends. And I don't have any. I have no best friends, no one I can hang out with. No one. I am starting college in september, but I'm very nervous and don't make friends easily because I get shy. I know this sounds very stupid. But it's getting me down so much.
 
 
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Nadiah[info]nadiah800 on July 1st, 2008 11:07 am (UTC)
awww babe I know how you feel *hug*
Jen: peace[info]nomit on July 2nd, 2008 06:20 pm (UTC)
*hugs* it sucks :(
Ana Paula: Lost in Translation // Window Scene[info]sixth on July 1st, 2008 03:42 pm (UTC)
ugh, i know the feeling, trust me. i've been through that same situation twice in my life: when i finished high school and all my best friends at that time went on different majors and we grew apart; and now that i've dropped out of college, although we still keep in touch it's not the same, i only hang out with some of my classmates once in a while :/

but, yea, it sucks big time having no friends, but i'm sure you'll make new ones once your classes start :)
Jen: Juliet-Finale[info]nomit on July 2nd, 2008 06:24 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I haven't hung out with any of my friends in such a long time. I'm sorry you had to go through it twice though. I'm hoping to reconnect with one of my friends who will be going to the same college as me. So hopefully I'll make friends, I have a feeling I'll be one of the oldest students :)
Gabriel: Misc ;; Climbed to see the world[info]fading_away1990 on July 1st, 2008 11:44 pm (UTC)
Everyone goes through this phase at one point or another during their lives. It's totally natural. Hell, I'm going through the phase right now, too. I haven't seen my best friend in over a month, I haven't spoken to any of my really close friends in some time. This summer, I've been hanging out with people I hadn't been close with in school at all. It's strange, but oddly swell at the same time.

I realize making friends ain't the easiest thing, especially for people like you and I who have the draw-back of dealing with anxiety, stress, and/or shyness. It's a downer. But as time goes on, you'll meet new people (perhaps at a slow pace, but hey!), and you might never have the same relationship you once did with all your close HS friends, but that's life, and I think you'll be fine in the long run.

Like you, I'm pretty terrified of being in a new setting; but think of it as a new adventure in life. Yes, there will be obstacles, there will be those times when you feel like completely giving up. But as long as you stand tall and fight past the shitfest, you'll be rewarded with great new people, and most of all, great memories. Everything will come in time, I promise. ;)
Jen: kibbs[info]nomit on July 2nd, 2008 06:30 pm (UTC)
Yeah. During HS I got moved around the school, from one tutor to the next, always having to make friends again and again. It sucked but I got through it.

I hate being shy, because I do love to make friends, but it's having to confidence to speak to someone I don't know. I don't have confidence and it sucks. Because it has stopped me from doing an awful lot.

I'll try to see college as an adventure. I love the thought of adventures :)

Thank you for the awesome comment, glad to see you are still alive :)