A cure for Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy or a solution to slow the process down. And a cure for Cancer!

Teasers:


( Whose gonna get my back? )

I want to move out of my dad's and live with my mum, but I'm too scared to do it.

I passed my driving test. Third time lucky and only 6 minors! It makes college life so much easier!
College is alright. I have assignments to do though :( Argh, but i'm sorting out my application for my degree :)
There was an accident on the way home so the police made me go through the lanes. I had to pretend to know where I was going lol
I hope everyone is ok. I'm tired after standing for 7 hours at a till.

When I have the money to, I want another tattoo. But I want to design one myself (hopefully), but I have no inspiration. Any ideas?

OHMYGOD I suck! I have been a crap LJ friend and penpal! I'm really sorry. College has been crazy and I've had tons of assignments so I've been really tired. I've also come down with a cold again!

I have only had bad luck recently. My car insurers cancelled my car insurance last week because my step-mum couldn't get a hold of them to pay the £40 for my step-sister. So the car insurers decided to cancel my contract and they didn't even give me a weeks notice or anything. Then I didn't get the job I desperately needed!! I even had to pay for the postage to find out I didn't get the bloody job! My dad is driving me up the fucking wall! He is so money orientated its fucking crazy! I have to apy about £200 out this month and I have £39 in my bank account. I'm not working on Sunday as I'm going to practice my driving as I have my test on monday. If I don't pass I might actually kill myself or someone. I've also decided I'm doing a uni course next year, but I am very unlikely to get any money to help towards paying it. So I need to move out.

If I can drive I might see about staying at my boyfriends an awful lot more. I can't pay £60 rent every month when I'm this poor and I pay for all my stuff anyway.

I hate my life right now. Yes I'm venting and I'm miserable, but I have had no break whatsoever from anything. No one wants to give me a job! My dad thinks I have money coming out of my fucking ears! I hate this. My dad is even trying to prevent me from doing this degree course by saying 'You really need to think about it, you need to find the money to pay for it, blah blah blah!' I have no support from him or my step mum and I'll probably have no support from my mum and my step dad!

I'm going to go and kip, maybe that'll help.

God dammit! I wish I lived in America!
I want this:
http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302028445&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442177432&bmUID=1225993310408

WAHEY!!! PARALYMPICS!!!
As you may have guessed, I'm off to watch the opening ceremony on tv! Maybe China will actually recognise disabled individuals.

I love transamerica.

stolen from rootwalla :)

My answers are in BOLD.

Appearance:
I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.

I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have had more than 2 piercings.
I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life:
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home. When I was like, 2. Ha ha
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "LOL" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my trousers rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to North America.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the Internet.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Honesty/Crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've driven through a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time with no problem.

Mental health:
I have been diagnosed with depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take/have taken anti-depressants.
I have had an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying.

Death:
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random:
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
I fucking swear regularly.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
I bake well.
I know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

I'm completely fed up of life right now. I have applied for two jobs, I got neither. I really REALLY wanted the one at the odeon. But no. That has completely crushed me. I was really relying on that.
Fuck sake.

Finally! Photobucket has been an arse and wouldn't upload my pictures. Anyway I stole this from Ray (hearts_entwined)

1. Take a picture of your bag
2. Now dump everything out and neatly adjust them, and take a picture (no matter how embarrassing)
3. Talk about the items inside. Detail

I love this bag, but it jingles as I walk which is annoying. But I love it.




1. My purse my boyfriend got me for christmas, this is usually full of change
2. Piriton and Neurofen. I suffer from really bad hayfever and I get headaches quite regularly.
3. Odeon job application. Which I've now filled out and sent off.
4. Mints. Chewing gun which I thought had run off and polos.
5. Body shop lip balm. Guarana Lip Butter & Mango Peach lip balm.
6. Rubbish, this includes receipts and sweet wrappers.
7. Olbas oil stick and 4head stick. I take these everywhere!
8. Body spray. My boyfriend chose me this one as I couldn't decide what one to get as I like most of them.
9. Some loose change I found at the bottom of my bag.
10. A pen. I guess I'd need it at some point.
11. My iPod. Well one of them. I would die without this. It's my life!
12. Tissues. With the hayfever I'm getting at the moment I'd die without these.
13. My phone. Which is dying. But I'd also die without my phone too.

This isn't where I saw myself five years ago. I guess I don't know where I saw myself. Maybe with friends. I don't see any of my friends. The only time I see anyone that is a friend is when I go to school. I stayed on an extra year at school, so all my high school/secondary school friends left and went to uni and stuff. I kind of kept in touch with them. But they all made other friends. All those I considered as best friends have other friends they consider best friends. All I have is my boyfriend. Don't get me wrong he is the love of my life. But a girl needs her friends. And I don't have any. I have no best friends, no one I can hang out with. No one. I am starting college in september, but I'm very nervous and don't make friends easily because I get shy. I know this sounds very stupid. But it's getting me down so much.

( Unspeakable secrets are hidden within the Forbidden City )

I'm sorry for the lack of activity, my computer is down and has no internet. So I'm struggling to get access on the other computers. I will do a proper update soon, just thought I'd let everyone know I'm not dead or anything, I'm just struggling with school stuff and other commitments at the moment. I hope everyone is okay :)

my grandma & my aunt - they held my family together, since then it's all fallen apart
the relationship I used to have with my mum
my cat
my Leo teddy I used to love and adore as a kid
The innocence of being a child and not having to worry about anything
the bracelet my boyfriend got me, it meant the world to me and I have misplaced it and haven't found it for almost a year

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If you're not British, would you love to live in the UK?
Favourite British band/singer:
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Favourite City and/or Shire:
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Moulin Rouge!
Samantha Carter
Sanctuary
The Golden Compass - Marisa, Asriel



( These little black sandals are walking me away.. )